Psalms vs Palms

2004 12 07 What to do when you think you've been lied to (falls pretense) and then learn finally the truth? When truth is not better than a lie. Much of life must be about this. Or. Oh, buttercup, I wish the glaze you'd put under my chin would hold past my next shower. Soldiers … Continue reading Psalms vs Palms →

Fight With Taxi Driver

2004 12 01 What is it that draws people to ignorance? And where does mine come from? Is it a fact that people do not want to deal with reality? Obviously a reality is given, it is distributed, it is consumed. Those who cannot cope with it then drift NOT away from it but with … Continue reading Fight With Taxi Driver →

Baby Has Shoes

28 11 04 Read. Confusion. Trying to figure out. Ideas. Where to go? Magdala or Magdalene was (?) a Benjamite. Weren't the Benjamites overrun by David? This the Royal connection as Jesus was possibly from the line of David. Explain this love to them. They say they give but who gives in a war? No, … Continue reading Baby Has Shoes →

Virgins And OGU

25 11 04 Thinking of things that could make sense. Verisimilitude. Illusion. Delusion. Etc. What is the only way a child can be born of a virgin? How can a child be born of a virgin? How is a virgin child-birth possible? -The mother of the child is not a woman. -The child is unaware … Continue reading Virgins And OGU →

Sion Conspiracy Craze

24 11 04 Shipped yesterday. Shipping a lot lately. Never quite know where I might fall or if the ground is hard or not. The reason for it is obvious. My mouth. She runs on at times. It's very difficult keeping pace, you know. It came especially fast last night--pushed on by too much wine. … Continue reading Sion Conspiracy Craze →

Thoughts Wise People

23 11 04 It is time that limits all possibility. You loose possibility as time goes by. Edward Albee: You can take a blind person to a play and they'll understand it; take them to a movie they're lost. The rest-stop in the search for truth is humour. (Not sure who/what said that.) It should … Continue reading Thoughts Wise People →

Links Berg Hoch

18 11 04 Someone is being chased and as he practically defeats his chaser (who is chasing for ransom) he cuts a deal with him. "Okay, you got me. Turn me in. Collect your ransom but then come back and get me out." The story is what happens between chaser and chased to cause him/them … Continue reading Links Berg Hoch →

Watermelon Justice?

17 11 04 The watermelon army. Name given to army put together by G. Washington to fight whiskey tax rebels (1794). This the first state vs fed confrontation. Thomas Jefferson resigned as Sec of State over the matter because he sided with the states who were opposed to such fed power. See also Herman Husband. … Continue reading Watermelon Justice? →

She Walks In Gun Store

16 11 04 America. America. Do you hear the calling? Don't kill the messenger, please. I'm just 'round (t)here, under your chin. I know it's a mess but most porn endings are. So what. Don't wipe me off with your spotted hanky just yet. A woman walks into a gun store. The owner is always … Continue reading She Walks In Gun Store →

Stop Being With Stupid

15 11 04 - Moleskine Choice isn't about choosing but instead about which wrong(s) to pick. A little help from our worst-friend Zoroaster: A supreme being created twins of reality and unreality. These are not about good and evil. Reality is objectivity. Unreality is subjectivity. Subjectivity becomes negative when we become subject to it. So. … Continue reading Stop Being With Stupid →

Her Opposites

13 11 04 - Moleskine (including handwritten note). Arrival. Home? Home away from home. In a trance. Listening to ghost-like words from my son's wisdoms: Wenn eine Lügt dem glaubt man nicht auch wenn er dann die Wahrheit spricht. I think of nature. What is her opposites? Religion? Politics? Humanity? Belief, love, hope? (Just thought … Continue reading Her Opposites →

Between Meridians

12 11 04 Yes. Between meridians I will mark it with this date. I have seen a vision. So many. Always trapped in the three walls of a black box. This time two people meet for a debate. One side of the stage is a table dressed in white prepared for a fancy dinner. Next … Continue reading Between Meridians →

A Spec

11 11 04 - Moleskine I would fall 1000 times to test whether my heart cannot possibly break. But to what and will my silly gesture lead? I have received it. Yet again. And as I will. Soon. You for it. The jolt of my broken America or perpetual decay the white to my yoke. … Continue reading A Spec →

After Math

06 11 04 - Moleskine What are the things that modify? No, I mean motivate. Words and thoughts from others. Just finished Walden. Very inspiring but of all the nature I've been subject to it is the most non-sexual composition I have yet encountered. The author is asexual, right? There are practically no words, and … Continue reading After Math →

Old Getting

05 11 04 - Moleskine So few entries. Not just in this notebook. I spent the evening thinking about old people. Odd how so little of my thoughts having anything to do with my oldness. But O, let's review these silly words in another thirty years. Idear: a retire community, a grocer (Publix) and the … Continue reading Old Getting →

The End

03 11 04 - A weeping Moleskine. The intellectual (or lack thereof) coup detat is complete. It is now AMERICAN'T. America's dungeon doors are now locked, sealed. Her fate for the next century is enclosed with the emblem of Dubya (George W. Bush). Coins and cents will be tarnished with his resemblance and the mediocre … Continue reading The End →

Vote Days

30 10 04 and 1-2 11 04 -- Moleskine notebook. 30 10 04 Listen to the voices before they come. They will tell you things you've never heard before. Like the whisper of children (that is always on) to be had. Or the cries of another woman who hasn't deserved my mistake. How then should … Continue reading Vote Days →

Sunshine Darkness Illusion

27 10 04 - Moleskine. Pages slightly burnt, scratched, tilted. (What does that last one mean?) Even among the most fluid demons that inevitably find me, this far away from reality, I think and dream simultaneously of time. It befronts me most here at the so-called "Almost southern point" as a lollying figure. It could … Continue reading Sunshine Darkness Illusion →

On Key West

26 10 04 - Moleskine notebook. Days Pass again. But I have seen another end to pieces I've created as though Keylime were the motivating factor. Still, between the tourists like myself I feel no force that joins us unless content is a new force of nature. Can you believe, faithful black book, that I'm … Continue reading On Key West →

Survive vs Live

Just bringing old notebook notations online. This will take a while. Entry from 20.10.04. Notebook: Moleskine Yes, it is the wake of the deeds from dark places that I am in and tremble with fear. And I always end the fuck with Y and the big :-)? It is the flight of all flights that … Continue reading Survive vs Live →

Digression

Yes, it is in the wake of deeds from dark places that I waddle. And it's wet. That's because it's (something like) a lake. I think. I look not unlike some drunken and/or sober Won-The-Westerner. I know you know the kind. The only difference being there’s a tremble accompanying this motivating (to write something down) … Continue reading Digression →

Grappa & Godot

Note. This story took place in the early 90s. The notebook I transcribed this from isn't exact with the date. I reckon that's my bad. But I recall the play mentioned and the rest very well. Good luck. April 5, 1990 A postcard arrived exactly three days after waking up alone on the living room … Continue reading Grappa & Godot →

Dating German Chicks

One of my first Interwebnet posts. Indeed. An absolute must share. My (German born) mother put this in my face one morn when I was visiting her so many years ago. She cut it out of a small newspaper in God-knows-where USA promoting Billy Bob Thornton’s then new film. I love this so much, this … Continue reading Dating German Chicks →