Stop Being With Stupid

15 11 04 - Moleskine Choice isn't about choosing but instead about which wrong(s) to pick. A little help from our worst-friend Zoroaster: A supreme being created twins of reality and unreality. These are not about good and evil. Reality is objectivity. Unreality is subjectivity. Subjectivity becomes negative when we become subject to it. So. …

Her Opposites

13 11 04 - Moleskine (including handwritten note). Arrival. Home? Home away from home. In a trance. Listening to ghost-like words from my son's wisdoms: Wenn eine Lügt dem glaubt man nicht auch wenn er dann die Wahrheit spricht. I think of nature. What is her opposites? Religion? Politics? Humanity? Belief, love, hope? (Just thought …

Between Meridians

12 11 04 Yes. Between meridians I will mark it with this date. I have seen a vision. So many. Always trapped in the three walls of a black box. This time two people meet for a debate. One side of the stage is a table dressed in white prepared for a fancy dinner. Next …

A Spec

11 11 04 - Moleskine I would fall 1000 times to test whether my heart cannot possibly break. But to what and will my silly gesture lead? I have received it. Yet again. And as I will. Soon. You for it. The jolt of my broken America or perpetual decay the white to my yoke. …

After Math

06 11 04 - Moleskine What are the things that modify? No, I mean motivate. Words and thoughts from others. Just finished Walden. Very inspiring but of all the nature I've been subject to it is the most non-sexual composition I have yet encountered. The author is asexual, right? There are practically no words, and …

Old Getting

05 11 04 - Moleskine So few entries. Not just in this notebook. I spent the evening thinking about old people. Odd how so little of my thoughts having anything to do with my oldness. But O, let's review these silly words in another thirty years. Idear: a retire community, a grocer (Publix) and the …

The End

03 11 04 - A weeping Moleskine. The intellectual (or lack thereof) coup detat is complete. It is now AMERICAN'T. America's dungeon doors are now locked, sealed. Her fate for the next century is enclosed with the emblem of Dubya (George W. Bush). Coins and cents will be tarnished with his resemblance and the mediocre …

Vote Days

30 10 04 and 1-2 11 04 -- Moleskine notebook. 30 10 04 Listen to the voices before they come. They will tell you things you've never heard before. Like the whisper of children (that is always on) to be had. Or the cries of another woman who hasn't deserved my mistake. How then should …

On Key West

26 10 04 - Moleskine notebook. Days Pass again. But I have seen another end to pieces I've created as though Keylime were the motivating factor. Still, between the tourists like myself I feel no force that joins us unless content is a new force of nature. Can you believe, faithful black book, that I'm …

Survive vs Live

Just bringing old notebook notations online. This will take a while. Entry from 20.10.04. Notebook: Moleskine Yes, it is the wake of the deeds from dark places that I am in and tremble with fear. And I always end the fuck with Y and the big :-)? It is the flight of all flights that …

Digression

Yes, it is in the wake of deeds from dark places that I waddle. And it's wet. That's because it's (something like) a lake. I think. I look not unlike some drunken and/or sober Won-The-Westerner. I know you know the kind. The only difference being there’s a tremble accompanying this motivating (to write something down) …

Grappa & Godot

Note. This story took place in the early 90s. The notebook I transcribed this from isn't exact with the date. I reckon that's my bad. But I recall the play mentioned and the rest very well. Good luck. April 5, 1990 A postcard arrived exactly three days after waking up alone on the living room …